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I really can’t with my mom and sister. I’ve had it being their mediator forever. They need to both just grow the fuck up and get along. I don’t want it to bother me this much but it does. They are my only fucking family and it’s like how do I not care or get involved?
Started p90x again today. (: I’m feeling very accomplished. Made myself a protein shake and now going to clean up some of my room. I still feel very depressed but this is lifting my mood so ill run with it.
Also, I WILL get back on track tomorrow.
I’ve been reflecting a lot. I’m not sure how I’m feeling lately. Depressed? Regretful? I think I’ve gone through every emotion possible this last week. On my days off from work I find myself sitting in bed all day smoking cigarettes and watching shitty tv. I feel like I have so much to do but can’t think and just stay in bed. I need a new job. My brain will no longer let me enjoy it. Now I’m off to bed for 5 hours to go make 9.00 an hour and bust my ass for unappreciative fucks. The sound of the rain is so beautiful and calming. Maybe I’ll have good dreams. I’m all over.
I’m so fucking stressed. Why do people have engagement parties anyway? So stupid.
I just woke up out of no where choking and I had an acidy, disgusting throw up taste in the back of my throat. Did I just almost choke and die on vomit in my sleep? What the fuck?
I’m engaged to fuckyeahbanehoodies.tumblr.com (: this is so fucking awesome.
On a health kick. Just spent an hour and a half at the gym then came home n made a grilled chicken salad and had grapefruit for dessert. I hope I keep up with it. Give me supports people’s!!! I made a more realistic goal of losing 40 pounds not 60 and I’m very motivated and organized in my life as of recent. Happy days… Haha that just made me think of how my live journal was bad_diary_dayz I was so cool… N I loved Pedro the lion.
Garden State is so amazing. One of my favorites always.
So bored waiting for Chris while he’s in physical therapy. Happy birthday Geoff Rickly!!!!
At this point I’m trying to create relationships with people and I’m texting everyday, not once have I been texted first by any of these people… Do I keep trying or just realize ill only ever have Chris and holly?
looking to move upstate maybe… what is a good site to find places for rent? i have no idea where to begin…
Is it better to have that one person who completely understands you and no one else or to have a bunch of people to be there for you that don’t really know you?